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Something That People Called "LOVE"
Tuesday 6 May 2014 | 11:02 |
Suddenly, terasa macam nak post something kat sini as this evening I were helping Sha to decorate her blog. Yah, actually I've forgot how to edit and what so ever. And it's even worse when Blogger had been upgraded, so I can't find the codes. Sorry Sha *sigh*
Erm what I'm gonna talk today is about LOVE.
LOVE ? Did that thing exist ? In many ways, I've seen lots of people had been expressing their love. The love that I mean here is a love towards the special one, yah that "special girlfriend and boyfriend". Sometimes I got confused. Hm nahh, idk.
Actually, I think I've fallen in love. "Again?" . Yah, again. This time is kinda serious. I've been dreaming bout him day by day. I've been missing him every night. But he hates me. Cause I've made a huge mistake. I cheated on him, I didn't tell him about who I really am. Then, he finds out and now he hates me. He really hates me and he meant it.
Yknow, love is hurting. I'm wondering where's his promises ? Hm a friend of mine said, if he really loves me, he'll forgive me no matter how hard it is. But, he didn't forgive me. Hmmmm
However, I've gained my spirits. Yeah, I'll make him forgive me and fall for me. Over again and again. This is just a small effort of mine. Why need to be shy ? Worrying people might called you " PERIGI CARI TIMBA?" Nah, who the cares ? Even Saidatina Khadijah whom propose Prophet Muhammad SAW at the first place. No need to be shy k *flip hairs*
So the mission that I've planned had been done since yesterday. Although I did not get any respond from him. Hahaha I've sent videos of a little baby through Whatsapp cause he loves baby. Especially Opi. Hihi
I hope this idea of mine will works and he can forgives me. If he can't love me back, it's okay. At least he forgives me. That's enough for me.
And I've been thinking maybe this is a punishment for me. My heart feels uneasy and I keep thinking about him. Maybe Allah is testing me right now. I believe I can go through all this test. I'm strong enough. And I know Allah won't test His servant beyond their ability. Insha Allah, I can do this. Ameen.
So the moral of the story is never break people's trust. And SORRY only works when mistakes are made, not when trust is broken. Because FORGIVING might be easy, but FORGETTING and TRUSTING again is sometimes IMPOSSIBLE.
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